Today is my Birthday

There's no fear in fashion, love, and life.

So today is my birthday. Well actually my 36th birthday. Not ashamed of my age at all even though I am pushing 40! But, remembrance is the most that I feel today. Remembrance Killers. I remember 6 years ago today being back in my hometown of Delaware and I turned 30. I planned a huge party at Polidoro's restaurant and lounge for everyone to attend and yes when you plan it, they will come. It was the greatest party ever. Salsa music and food and great people. Family, friends, coworkers, the whole sh-bang. I remember going to party city and getting these huge balloons, a $100 worth to be exact. I made my dress, a coral sleeveless piece with added argyle sweater ruffles in the front..lol I know but the picture is below. I had on gold Dior heels, and a china doll wig with a princess crown. Oh yes, it was a big deal. My husband's parents showed up along with his uncle and his best friends, my sister, my aunt, my cousins, everybody was there. We danced the night away and got tore up from the floor up. It was the best night ever. Now, here I am at 36 and I am away from home for the last 6 years in Atlanta. I planned another celebration of the same caliber, but at Loca Luna. Yes, a salsa restaurant and club. The only thing is, not the same people are here. Yes my husband and brother, but not my best friends Tashell and Nikki, not my old coworkers, and not my hubby's parents and his friends. Not my cousins Miguel and Aunt Juanita, none of them. Will it be the same type of party with my new found friends and coworkers? Will I have the same amazing time as I did before? Well, I know I will because life is about evolving and changing. Its about expanding into the known and unknown and generating new connections. When you have a birthday, its your new year celebration. You are growing wiser in all aspects of life. Some say getting older is daunting. Well not me Bitch. I like being this age. I like that I have survived so much in my life and I love all of the experiences that I have been through in my lifetime. Shit, this is only the beginning baby. They say in Chinese horoscopes that this is the year of the sheep, the ram and yes I am one of them. All I have been given is blessings in many forms I cannot begin to describe. I am not trying to brag, but I have paid my dues and put in work for far too long and now it is finally going to pay off. They have a saying at work called Dealing with Ambiguity. Its the motion of dealing with the unknown and embracing it without negativity. Its about changes that are vague but for the greater good. Today, turning 36, that is how I feel. I feel that I am conquering ambiguity, not dealing with it. So for all my Aries Killers that are celebrating their birthdays this month, I love you and I want you to be happy and get your fucking party on. You are going to do the same thing next year with even more of connections, expansion, and greater experiences in life.